After a very fast summer, I am returning to work next week. Officially I don’t need to go in to the school until Tuesday morning, but it has always been my habit to go in when the teachers do – the week before – and help out setting up, cleaning up, whatever is needed. This year, having had to transfer to a new school, I felt a bit like a fish out of water.
I started the day by going by my old school, to say hi to friends. It felt hard and sad, so I headed to my new school. The “fish out of water” feeling was strengthened, not alleviated, although the vice principal was kind and caring, showing me around and explaining what she could. The school is so large I keep saying I’ll need a GPS so I don’t get lost.
I don’t know what it will take to feel like I belong but I will keep looking for that moment and grasp on to it.
So, when all else fails, I always look at something beautiful. The fact it is purple doesn’t hurt.